Faith and Miracle (5)

It was difficult to break the news to their friends. Perhaps it was because Gloria did not want to accept the fact that there might be a problem with the pregnancy and it seems more real everytime she explains it to her close friends. Gloria and her husband wanted so badly for this pregnancy to come to full term. However, they realised as well that this is not something within their control. Gloria requested for her friends to pray for her that she would clearly know if Dilation and Curretage (D&C) is the right decision to be done. It would really be wrong to put the baby away when there is still hope. As for Gloria's husband, he is very sure that Gloria's health is more important than keeping the pregnancy.

It was heart tearing to listen to the song "God will make a way", "My life is in Your hand" or even simple "Amen and Hallelujah". On one hand, it is "I know God is in control and He has His plan" but on the other hand it is "Why is Your plan causing us so much pain Lord?" Trusting in God does not mean that the tears will not flow. For nights both Gloria and her husband pray for a miracle and confirmation. Very soon the weekend passed and Monday is the day for another checkup.

It was rainning the whole day. The weather was very much the same as Gloria's feeling. Her feelings are torn, unsure and sad. As Gloria leaves for the doctor appointment a sense of peace came upon her. She looked up to the blue sky and a little voice spoke to her, "This is not the child that you are going to bring up." It was such a painful message and yet at the same time reassuring.

The doctor did a scan on her and told her that the embryo size decreased. He is very sorry that the baby is no longer alive. Gloria's husband said "Then we have to do what is needed". The appointment for D&C was arranged. Gloria is going to go through D&C in two days time. The walk home seems to be forever. Gloria told her husband that she is "OK" as her heart was prepared before the disappointment. This news was more difficult for her husband as he was hoping for a "miracle".

Upon reaching home, both of them sat on the floor and cried, while convincing themselves that this is perhaps the best that should happen. Gloria had not much tears left. She had been crying since the last doctor appointment and at this point of time, she needs to be strong for her husband. Her husband on the other hand, her comforter for the past few days, is in great sorrows. Today seems to be the time for their roles to be exchanged. They cried, they prayed and they went to bed with tears streaming down their face.

Gloria had her D&C two days later. The physical healing process is long but the grieving process is even longer. Off and on tears still flow for no reason. It is good to have a photo of little Isaac for rememberance. It is good to have friends and families who are so supportive. It is good for husband and wife to come up strong in this crisis. Of all, it is good to know that God cares. Thankyou Lord for this miracle.

The earlier episodes can be found at:

• Faith and Miracle (1)
• Faith and Miracle (2)
• Faith and Miracle (3)
• Faith and Miracle (4)