Have you ever wonder, how would you feel or response when someone close to you pass away?

Today, my friend's ex-gf passed away. But he seems happy. In his YM and MSN status, there wrote "Godby XX...say hi to Jesus for us". Later i asked him how he felt, he said he is happy for her and thankful to God.

Hm...

One month back, I attended a funeral. It's been quite some time since I attend a funeral.
Going to funeral is getting more and more awkward, I feel.. haha...
The last funeral, I cannot help crying although i do not know the deceased =.= .I think I can work as professional cryers at chinese funeral.

I have this funny feeling about death. I always hope that I would die earlier than my parents until one day my sis said that it would be a blessing if the older generation would go ahead. Less pain to bear it seems.
Life is indeed unpredictable. My friend's ex was only 24 years old.
But I guess life moves on. No one is irreplaceable.

Well, good news is, my friend manage to tell the gospel to his sister and friends using this chance ( his ex death). He said this is what she would want him to do. Sounds cliche doesnt it. But I know he is speaking it out sincerely.
Koko also mentioned that when he passed away, he want us to hold a celebration for him.

I wonder.

Actually, I do hope I will go before all my loved one does. But I know it is very selfish to think so and impossible to do so.

I am scared also, that I would die too soon without completing the task I am suppose to do. What am I suppose to show God then... =.=

I think... I am thinking too much...

Time to sign off...

cheers