Taking a break from work. I am tired. Actually I think I can handle the work load, only sometimes in this land of foreign language - I feel like I am such a fool. Something being spoken and you only understand part of it. And you have a colleague who instead just explain to you will tell you - "Don't tell me you did not get it - it was mentioned ....", "Here you go again- playing dumb" - I can say it's pretty demotivating. I admit - I am the blur type. Had been all the time blur but happily blur. Now no more happily blur. One thing that I remember and hold onto is God controls tomorrow. I want to finish this chapter here in my current department fast and progress to somewhere I have fun working. I do have fun here - I enjoy teaching but I cannot totally communicate with the students. I enjoy learning the technical stuff but writing proposals in German is definitely not my stregth. I feel like wasting my time doing something not optimum. I am so happy that I have life after work - my hubby, family (sis who always miss me), choir, bible study and friends. Yeah Tze Ying --- count your blessings. Don't worry, I will be fine.