Taking a break from work. I am tired. Actually I think I can handle the work load, only sometimes in this land of foreign language - I feel like I am such a fool. Something being spoken and you only understand part of it. And you have a colleague who instead just explain to you will tell you - "Don't tell me you did not get it - it was mentioned ....", "Here you go again- playing dumb" - I can say it's pretty demotivating. I admit - I am the blur type. Had been all the time blur but happily blur. Now no more happily blur.

Had been sick for two weeks. On holiday for a week and tomorrow is time to get back to work. Nope my voice is not 100% back but it is definitely better. I can talk for longer period without losing it. Talked to mum on the phone today. It is wonderful to have family around us. Give me the energy to work on my doctorate work. Seriously, I cannot really remember the direction I set for my studies after two weeks being sick. Good night sleep and a new start tomorrow.

Finally weekend. Tomorrow is World Woman's day, I finally understood why sometimes woman are called "shan ba" -38 (march the 8th). I am soo soo soo tired... am typing this while keeping my eyes close. Do not know wy is it that my eyes are so tired lately. Perhaps I work too hard.. ha..ha..Anyhow, a few short notes before i go to bed.

This weekend is really good. Get to take a long afternoon nap. I guess I am pretty tired.

Want to thank God too that I once again experiences answered prayer. Work had not been easy. Sometimes I do not seem to understand what is being expected, few weeks ago Prof requested for me to work on one topic. Too cut the long story short, I did the work but it was not what was expected. I did not understand what was expected... got a few more days to work on it. Lost of ideas, I prayed, asking God to open doors for me. Help me to know what needs to be done. Equip me with the knowledge needed. God listens to prayer. Not only I got new ideas after talking to colleagues, Prof herself explained her expectations using an example. After listening to her example, I realised our points of approach are different. I try to propose a solution but what is required is to highlight the problem! 

"Exceedingly, Abundantly, and Beyond". These three words capture my mind as I was listening to the message this morning. There had been some problem with work but God opened the door unexpectedly. However, opening the door means my mind needs to start on creative and innovative work - something I had not been very good at lately. Sometimes, I feel just so tired and it seems like my brain is so dry. Perhaps I am physically tired and emotionally tired- Chinese New Year is around the corner but family is so far away.

The message today reminds me again... Jesus promised me abundant life and so I will trust in His promises.

Lord I hand my day to you, my problems to you, my sins and I want to step into your grace and start my day right in your blessing and the abundant life that you promised me. Amen! 

Sitting in front of the computer, reading the email from my prof, recieving the news that my draft for paper is too weak and thinking hard how I should rewrite it... and my brain not responding, no new ideas, not knowing how to structure the information that I have... Monday blues... simply Monday blues...